Time Wasted

I ran
I always did
You created the distance
I made that my place

You ignored my existence
I wished you seized to too
I started walking
Then you saw me

I had no words
When you chose to talk
I accepted that you never cared
then your heart you bared

It was too late for anything else
I saw the friendship that awaited
When my eyes opened
Alas, yours shut forever

Love is not a weakness
words never uttered

Your fear robbed all

Even your title, Father

From a son

Retrospect is a curse
A curse for those left behind
When the tears stop falling
When words fall on ears that exist only in memory
I wish I said I understand
But that understanding came with retrospect as did the love
Perhaps I would have been happier if I never understood
Lives lived at a distance
Hoping for a difference
But blood that pumps in the veins
Reveals nature that was hoped could be avoided
All those years you stood afar hoping I would be different
But I am your echo
Your reflection
Your son
If I could I would turn back time and say
It’s okay I know your fears

Seasons Past

Spring and summer are at an end
Memories of sunshine and laughter are echoes on the wind
Winter is all that remains…

Hail and snow fall from my eyes
My heart covered beneath their weight
Heavy are the feet that carry me as I journey from day to day

I close my eyes against the tomorrows I must face without you
And through it all your smile breaks through

My chest wakes with a beating
A rhythm I thought gone with you
A warmness fills me
A defrost long overdue

Winter is gone and spring is anew
Catalysed by Memories of sunshine of laughter and all the many seasons shared as one from two

Ours was a time too brief
A holiday cut short by the cruelest of thieves
But every moment gifted together
Has filled my days with a joy and love the greatest of treasures

I will see you again someday
maybe in another autumn, perhaps in another summer or winter
For now you live in the heart of me and spring shall live on forever.